So it's been a long time since I posted something new. I've been busy with school and not saying "no" to things. Recently, I pulled an "all-nighter" although I don't really consider it an all-nighter since it wasn't necessary as I wasn't really studying or anything, but I did get more work than usual (meaning I did at least some work). I just got back from eating after work (which I got off early since I wasn't feeling well).
Things have been busy. Planning for the times ahead, as well as taking things as they come. I've planned out my next four years in school - courses and whatnot - and I'm hoping that they work out fairly well.
I've been hanging out with friends and people and doing things - which I have fun, but then again, I feel bad. Why do I feel bad? Well, sometimes, I just don't want to hang out with people (or at least some certain people), but I don't want the friends or people that I do want to hang out with to feel awkward because we're all "friends." I also can't say "no" if people want to hang out because I feel guilty. I understand a lot of people say "no" to hanging out because they have work to do, but when it comes to when I have work and stuff to do, I feel bad to say that I can't hang out. I suppose I need to learn to say "no."
Anyways, other things... Other things... I've been doing pretty poorly in school (I wonder why). I know I should do better, but I'm not sure if I can bring myself to do better. I've been feeling pretty down lately also. Not sure if that affects my schoolwork (well, it affects my participation in things I suppose).
I've been doing better in juggling though! I really enjoy juggling and I'm getting better! I'm learning new tricks and juggling different things. Planning to practice, practice, practice. Although, I feel like I bother the juggling people, so I'm not sure if I should juggle on my own only and not be in the club anymore, or whathaveyou.
There's so many things to say. I should be posting more (even though people probably don't care what I have to say, but it's nice just to get things out - since I don't really have friends). I haven't been making the time to track what I've been doing and now everything is becoming a blur.
What else has been happening.... I'm not sure. Life is life is life. I suppose I shall just try to post more, or something. Maybe I should try to come up with interesting things to say rather than just post about my life.
Side note: Halloween is coming up and I'm not sure if I'm going to dress up. It would be lovely if I could be a pumpkin this Halloween, but I suppose we shall see - I'm not sure how it will work out.
