Crazy Christmas

Hey-o. So it's been a while since the last post (maybe not as long as other posts though. Just maybe.). It's almost the holidays! How exciting! Well, a lot of things has happened since the last time. Things have been a bit much and whatnot. Apparently, also, I say "whatnot" a lot, which I'm not denying, but what other ways are there to say whatever else? Or ... maybe stuff. But either way, I think "whatnot" is better than "stuff" or they're about the same.
Anyways, it's winter break and I'm spending it with a different friend this time. :) How exciting. I get to view the views and see the places and explore. I'm still in Pennsylvania in this break, but I'm still having a bunch of fun. So close to New York, New York, but at the same time, not. Anyways, this friend of mine has a fun family, which is nice. I'm fitting right in! Maybe.... Actually, they just seem fairly accepting (Whew... I almost said exciting, which wasn't the word I was looking for).
What else has happened... Well, the semester has ended, and I feel like I haven't done the best. I wish I could have changed that, but I had a lack of motivation (for lack of a better word, right?). Also, I got fired from my job. Yippee.. Not. The reason(s) was/were stupid, but it's really whatever now. I wasn't that happy as of lately working there anyway, and the new people coming in weren't exactly my cup of tea. I could come up with a bunch of other excuses, but let's just say it was for the better. A good three months, first job, working and whatnot (there I go again with the whatnot). Anyway, I could start searching for a new job, starting fresh, or maybe just focus on my school work (which is really the important thing that I should be doing). But then again, I feel bad for the loans that are piling up on my family. They only mention  it once in a while, but it seems like they're struggling a bit, and I'm just here, doing whatever I want... I'm not even planning to go back home until the summer. I almost considered just dropping out of school and heading back home, but not really home towards the end of the semester though. That was freaky... scary. Things just have been much for me.
Too many thoughts... I like to money and I like to do things that I want to do without no regards to other people. I tend to think too much, like when the semester was starting to end, I got sad because of all the people I probably won't see ever again. Is that bad of me? I like to meet people, I like to be around people, but at the same time, I don't quite like people. I'm apparently complicated or something... I feel like a misanthrope, but at the same time, I don't like being alone. I like the attention... a lot, and that's bad of me. I think of how I'm a horrible person, but at the same time, I'm a good, nice person. Which one is it? Being in psychology for the first semester, I'm thinking that maybe I have conflicted thoughts and that probably isn't helping my situation. (It shows how I'm such a good student that I can't even remember the terminology).
I also plan to re-take some classes over the summer, which is a waste of money, I get that... But I'm trying to try. I'm trying to be a good student, a good daughter, a good person. It might mean that I would only be home for a month or so, but maybe it's worth it. I'm sure my family misses me, and they might be in a financial situation, but I should finish school. I can't give up now. I should try to better myself. I am going to better myself. One little step at a time.
If you hadn't noticed, I'm so scatter-brained. I'm sure this post had its twists and turns, but that's how I'm feeling right now. Hopefully things will get better. I'm planning on having some better New Year's Resolutions and hopefully get through those. (Preview: Meet a certain amount of people in my residence hall; Receive chocolates and/or flowers from a guy - preferably on Valentine's Day; Get a 3.0 GPA for the spring semester).

Frazzling Finals

So, yet again, I haven't written for a while. It seems like it's been ages. It's been almost a month now. Wow. I apologize. I always feel so rushed with life, so busy with school shenanigans and whatnot. Anyways, what's been up, how's it been hanging? For myself, as the title of this post says, finals are coming up (probably for everyone who's anyone in school though, unless you're doing something otherwise - as in student teacher or other assignments such as finals project or whatnot-whatever they're calling it nowadays).
In reality, I'm a horrible, horrible student. I cannot for the life of me really prioritize things, especially in school. I feel as if I cannot deny a request to hang out, so I go out and hang out anyway. Unless it's something like work. Because I love working. Period. I love working at Starbucks and I find it the best!
OH! Something that happened recently was that Frank Warren from Post Secret came to my school and had a live event. It was amazing! I was super excited, especially because I got to juggle too (because there was club that day - and by "I got to juggle" I mean with my juggling peoples). After the Post Secret event, I bought myself a book and had Frank sign it. I asked him to just sign and date it and he asked with what date. So in response, I was just awkwardly saying, "...Today's date?" So he then proceeded to put the next day's date, in which I awkwardly stared at him and told him that it wasn't the right date. Then, he gave me two stamps since he got the date wrong. After that, he asked if I could juggle the clubs that I had (at this point, I could barely juggle them, if you call it juggling). I asked him if he could juggle clubs since he had seemed interested in them, and then he juggled my clubs. Now, I was just amazed (and in disbelief because he said he had juggling balls, but juggled the clubs better than I could juggle them - and I've been practicing). I was so amazed and in disbelief that I forgot to ask if I could record him doing that and to ask him to sign them - just because. You know, just because.
Some other things that happened was just meeting some people, being annoyed at people, being annoyed at people more, hanging out with some people and working and whatnot. Something that happened: I was going to ask for someone's number (in my class) since I'd never be seeing them again (at least in that class, since it was our last official class), but one of my "friends" was rushing me to leave, and so I didn't get to ask (especially because I felt awkward - with the rushing "friend" and all), and that made me all annoyed and sad. Later on, I went to one of my other friends' office hours (just because that's what I do), and met this one guy who was fun to talk to. Apparently (very apparently), I was no help to myself about being a "hipster" because what I tried to explain what I thought was a hipster fit for myself as well. And I was not proving my point about not being a hipster. Because I'm not. Really. (And I'm not just saying this because I "know" I'm a hipster and by not admitting to being a hipster makes me a hipster - type thing). I seriously don't want to be a hipster and don't believe I am a hipster. Whatever that is. So overall, that day was like... bad. Because I thought of how I wouldn't see that guy again either. Man, not seeing people. The end of the semester. I WON'T SEE THESE PEOPLE EVER AGAIN. <- me being dramatic, although it is probably mostly true being as most of the people I am talking about are either juniors or seniors who randomly took the same course(s) or are in the same place(s) due to the circumstances given for this semester - i.e., elective course, friend's office hours for the semester, etc.
So, what what what else... Oh, I am going to be spending Christmas with another one of my friends. Hopefully all of the break goes well. I am hoping to do better for the next semester. Maybe hopefully write more or something. But maybe writing about once a month is good, because then there are more things to write about compared to a day-to-day thing. Also, New Year's Resolutions! Yay! Or something... Anyway, until next time!