Hey-o. So it's been a while since the last post (maybe not as long as other posts though. Just maybe.). It's almost the holidays! How exciting! Well, a lot of things has happened since the last time. Things have been a bit much and whatnot. Apparently, also, I say "whatnot" a lot, which I'm not denying, but what other ways are there to say whatever else? Or ... maybe stuff. But either way, I think "whatnot" is better than "stuff" or they're about the same.
Anyways, it's winter break and I'm spending it with a different friend this time. :) How exciting. I get to view the views and see the places and explore. I'm still in Pennsylvania in this break, but I'm still having a bunch of fun. So close to New York, New York, but at the same time, not. Anyways, this friend of mine has a fun family, which is nice. I'm fitting right in! Maybe.... Actually, they just seem fairly accepting (Whew... I almost said exciting, which wasn't the word I was looking for).
What else has happened... Well, the semester has ended, and I feel like I haven't done the best. I wish I could have changed that, but I had a lack of motivation (for lack of a better word, right?). Also, I got fired from my job. Yippee.. Not. The reason(s) was/were stupid, but it's really whatever now. I wasn't that happy as of lately working there anyway, and the new people coming in weren't exactly my cup of tea. I could come up with a bunch of other excuses, but let's just say it was for the better. A good three months, first job, working and whatnot (there I go again with the whatnot). Anyway, I could start searching for a new job, starting fresh, or maybe just focus on my school work (which is really the important thing that I should be doing). But then again, I feel bad for the loans that are piling up on my family. They only mention it once in a while, but it seems like they're struggling a bit, and I'm just here, doing whatever I want... I'm not even planning to go back home until the summer. I almost considered just dropping out of school and heading back home, but not really home towards the end of the semester though. That was freaky... scary. Things just have been much for me.
Too many thoughts... I like to money and I like to do things that I want to do without no regards to other people. I tend to think too much, like when the semester was starting to end, I got sad because of all the people I probably won't see ever again. Is that bad of me? I like to meet people, I like to be around people, but at the same time, I don't quite like people. I'm apparently complicated or something... I feel like a misanthrope, but at the same time, I don't like being alone. I like the attention... a lot, and that's bad of me. I think of how I'm a horrible person, but at the same time, I'm a good, nice person. Which one is it? Being in psychology for the first semester, I'm thinking that maybe I have conflicted thoughts and that probably isn't helping my situation. (It shows how I'm such a good student that I can't even remember the terminology).
I also plan to re-take some classes over the summer, which is a waste of money, I get that... But I'm trying to try. I'm trying to be a good student, a good daughter, a good person. It might mean that I would only be home for a month or so, but maybe it's worth it. I'm sure my family misses me, and they might be in a financial situation, but I should finish school. I can't give up now. I should try to better myself. I am going to better myself. One little step at a time.
If you hadn't noticed, I'm so scatter-brained. I'm sure this post had its twists and turns, but that's how I'm feeling right now. Hopefully things will get better. I'm planning on having some better New Year's Resolutions and hopefully get through those. (Preview: Meet a certain amount of people in my residence hall; Receive chocolates and/or flowers from a guy - preferably on Valentine's Day; Get a 3.0 GPA for the spring semester).
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Frazzling Finals
So, yet again, I haven't written for a while. It seems like it's been ages. It's been almost a month now. Wow. I apologize. I always feel so rushed with life, so busy with school shenanigans and whatnot. Anyways, what's been up, how's it been hanging? For myself, as the title of this post says, finals are coming up (probably for everyone who's anyone in school though, unless you're doing something otherwise - as in student teacher or other assignments such as finals project or whatnot-whatever they're calling it nowadays).
In reality, I'm a horrible, horrible student. I cannot for the life of me really prioritize things, especially in school. I feel as if I cannot deny a request to hang out, so I go out and hang out anyway. Unless it's something like work. Because I love working. Period. I love working at Starbucks and I find it the best!
OH! Something that happened recently was that Frank Warren from Post Secret came to my school and had a live event. It was amazing! I was super excited, especially because I got to juggle too (because there was club that day - and by "I got to juggle" I mean with my juggling peoples). After the Post Secret event, I bought myself a book and had Frank sign it. I asked him to just sign and date it and he asked with what date. So in response, I was just awkwardly saying, "...Today's date?" So he then proceeded to put the next day's date, in which I awkwardly stared at him and told him that it wasn't the right date. Then, he gave me two stamps since he got the date wrong. After that, he asked if I could juggle the clubs that I had (at this point, I could barely juggle them, if you call it juggling). I asked him if he could juggle clubs since he had seemed interested in them, and then he juggled my clubs. Now, I was just amazed (and in disbelief because he said he had juggling balls, but juggled the clubs better than I could juggle them - and I've been practicing). I was so amazed and in disbelief that I forgot to ask if I could record him doing that and to ask him to sign them - just because. You know, just because.
Some other things that happened was just meeting some people, being annoyed at people, being annoyed at people more, hanging out with some people and working and whatnot. Something that happened: I was going to ask for someone's number (in my class) since I'd never be seeing them again (at least in that class, since it was our last official class), but one of my "friends" was rushing me to leave, and so I didn't get to ask (especially because I felt awkward - with the rushing "friend" and all), and that made me all annoyed and sad. Later on, I went to one of my other friends' office hours (just because that's what I do), and met this one guy who was fun to talk to. Apparently (very apparently), I was no help to myself about being a "hipster" because what I tried to explain what I thought was a hipster fit for myself as well. And I was not proving my point about not being a hipster. Because I'm not. Really. (And I'm not just saying this because I "know" I'm a hipster and by not admitting to being a hipster makes me a hipster - type thing). I seriously don't want to be a hipster and don't believe I am a hipster. Whatever that is. So overall, that day was like... bad. Because I thought of how I wouldn't see that guy again either. Man, not seeing people. The end of the semester. I WON'T SEE THESE PEOPLE EVER AGAIN. <- me being dramatic, although it is probably mostly true being as most of the people I am talking about are either juniors or seniors who randomly took the same course(s) or are in the same place(s) due to the circumstances given for this semester - i.e., elective course, friend's office hours for the semester, etc.
So, what what what else... Oh, I am going to be spending Christmas with another one of my friends. Hopefully all of the break goes well. I am hoping to do better for the next semester. Maybe hopefully write more or something. But maybe writing about once a month is good, because then there are more things to write about compared to a day-to-day thing. Also, New Year's Resolutions! Yay! Or something... Anyway, until next time!
In reality, I'm a horrible, horrible student. I cannot for the life of me really prioritize things, especially in school. I feel as if I cannot deny a request to hang out, so I go out and hang out anyway. Unless it's something like work. Because I love working. Period. I love working at Starbucks and I find it the best!
OH! Something that happened recently was that Frank Warren from Post Secret came to my school and had a live event. It was amazing! I was super excited, especially because I got to juggle too (because there was club that day - and by "I got to juggle" I mean with my juggling peoples). After the Post Secret event, I bought myself a book and had Frank sign it. I asked him to just sign and date it and he asked with what date. So in response, I was just awkwardly saying, "...Today's date?" So he then proceeded to put the next day's date, in which I awkwardly stared at him and told him that it wasn't the right date. Then, he gave me two stamps since he got the date wrong. After that, he asked if I could juggle the clubs that I had (at this point, I could barely juggle them, if you call it juggling). I asked him if he could juggle clubs since he had seemed interested in them, and then he juggled my clubs. Now, I was just amazed (and in disbelief because he said he had juggling balls, but juggled the clubs better than I could juggle them - and I've been practicing). I was so amazed and in disbelief that I forgot to ask if I could record him doing that and to ask him to sign them - just because. You know, just because.
Some other things that happened was just meeting some people, being annoyed at people, being annoyed at people more, hanging out with some people and working and whatnot. Something that happened: I was going to ask for someone's number (in my class) since I'd never be seeing them again (at least in that class, since it was our last official class), but one of my "friends" was rushing me to leave, and so I didn't get to ask (especially because I felt awkward - with the rushing "friend" and all), and that made me all annoyed and sad. Later on, I went to one of my other friends' office hours (just because that's what I do), and met this one guy who was fun to talk to. Apparently (very apparently), I was no help to myself about being a "hipster" because what I tried to explain what I thought was a hipster fit for myself as well. And I was not proving my point about not being a hipster. Because I'm not. Really. (And I'm not just saying this because I "know" I'm a hipster and by not admitting to being a hipster makes me a hipster - type thing). I seriously don't want to be a hipster and don't believe I am a hipster. Whatever that is. So overall, that day was like... bad. Because I thought of how I wouldn't see that guy again either. Man, not seeing people. The end of the semester. I WON'T SEE THESE PEOPLE EVER AGAIN. <- me being dramatic, although it is probably mostly true being as most of the people I am talking about are either juniors or seniors who randomly took the same course(s) or are in the same place(s) due to the circumstances given for this semester - i.e., elective course, friend's office hours for the semester, etc.
So, what what what else... Oh, I am going to be spending Christmas with another one of my friends. Hopefully all of the break goes well. I am hoping to do better for the next semester. Maybe hopefully write more or something. But maybe writing about once a month is good, because then there are more things to write about compared to a day-to-day thing. Also, New Year's Resolutions! Yay! Or something... Anyway, until next time!
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Juggling Junkie
So, another month has almost passed, and I've yet to write another blog post until now. I'm currently waiting at a Greyhound bus station in the late of night. I just got into the city after having been at a juggling festival. My first one ever. It was a SUPER GREAT time. I LOVED it. :) If I hadn't said so in previous posts, I took up juggling this semester and have now been juggling for about three months. It's been a blast, and I'm so glad I got the chance to go to this festival. I got to spend time with some fellow juggling members from my school, as well as meet a bunch of awesome people. The jugglers were/are amazing and super nice. It makes me glad to be a juggler and excited/inspired to learn more juggling tricks. I admire jugglers and now wish to go to future juggling events. I shall strive to be my best in juggling and learn new tricks and what-have-you. I'm not really a "juggling junkie" yet, but I really hope to be. I would like to have my own equipment (aside from the three clubs I purchased before - I still need to practice/learn to juggle those) and just be awesome. Juggling is my newest hobby and might I say, the best choice for me.
So, the Greyhound bus that I'm scheduled for doesn't come for another 3 hours or so (more like 4), but hey, I've got this blog to write to, and it can be a good time to be productive. I'm going to be on my way to one of my friend's house (from school), who was nice enough to invite me to her home for Thanksgiving (as it is Thanksgiving break now). I'm super excited to see new places and be on these adventures. They're super fun. -- And this is random, but I just gave a guy $1 (he asked me and I gave him one), since he asked. Random act of kindness for the time being?
Anyways, I'm hoping I get caught up in school because in all seriousness, I'm drowning. I don't exactly show people, but I'm beginning to get slightly worried. Or, at least, I'm slightly worried that I'm not worried enough. I should be doing better in school because the money is coming out of my parents' pockets for now, and they don't really deserve that. (turning to a more depressing tone - because I'm super tired at that too and I get weird when I'm tired).
I feel kind of bad because I don't really talk to my parents or family or anyone really. I'm not exactly sure if I miss them or not. I have no urge/need to talk to them really, and there's such a distance. I'm not sure what to say to them anymore. I feel bad that I don't feel bad, but I'm not sure what to think. Also, I recently received letters from some cousins on my mom's side (who are super Christian by the way), and one was a bit of a mood-lifter, while the other was just like: what did I just read? The latter discussed how I like my school, but I should drop out and go to community college anyway... What?
Anyways from that, I don't really know what I'm doing. I take my days one by one, but also plan it, and yet, I still don't know what I'm doing with it. I act like I know what I'm doing, or maybe, more rather, I sound like I know what I'm doing because I have this "plan" but I really don't know what I'm doing. I suppose everyone has those moments: What am I doing with my life? --- It's really scary. It's really depressing. It's like.. meh.
This also makes me think of how I've been thinking of how people might not like me. I'm always paranoid of how people probably don't like me, but act like they do. Like, there's this one person in my school's juggling club, who I'm almost absolutely positive must hate me. They never really talk to me (they talk to other people though), and they are just a bit intimidating and seem irritated at me. WHAT DID I DO TO THEM? WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE THEY HATE ME? *sigh* Whatever I guess. It might just be me. Call me crazy.
Let's see... What have I to do with my schooling? I need to finish that one loan for the next semester (oh, right). I also need to just get my @#$(! together, y'know (well, you probably don't know, but you can just agree - oh yeah, I do). Get it together, bro.
Anyways, anyways, anyways. So, my luggage/suitcase handle doesn't work, which sucks because I'm pulling it with a rope and I'm pretty sure I have bruises on the back of my legs now because you can only imagine how it looks like to pull a heavy suitcase with rope (it nearly rolls horizontally), and the distance (because of the rope probably) isn't that far - which doesn't help. What else?! I hope I get some productivity? Probably said that already. Not really sure what to say now. Not sure what has happened in this past month. Major test failures and whatnot. Meeting some new people. Me being me. Blahblahblah. *sigh*
Anyways, let's hope I write a new blog post sometime soon (only if you want? or if I need it? I guess.).
OH! ALSO, FRANK WARREN (POSTSECRET) IS COMING TO MY SCHOOL. AWESOME. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT.
Now, I bid y'all good night and good day.
So, the Greyhound bus that I'm scheduled for doesn't come for another 3 hours or so (more like 4), but hey, I've got this blog to write to, and it can be a good time to be productive. I'm going to be on my way to one of my friend's house (from school), who was nice enough to invite me to her home for Thanksgiving (as it is Thanksgiving break now). I'm super excited to see new places and be on these adventures. They're super fun. -- And this is random, but I just gave a guy $1 (he asked me and I gave him one), since he asked. Random act of kindness for the time being?
Anyways, I'm hoping I get caught up in school because in all seriousness, I'm drowning. I don't exactly show people, but I'm beginning to get slightly worried. Or, at least, I'm slightly worried that I'm not worried enough. I should be doing better in school because the money is coming out of my parents' pockets for now, and they don't really deserve that. (turning to a more depressing tone - because I'm super tired at that too and I get weird when I'm tired).
I feel kind of bad because I don't really talk to my parents or family or anyone really. I'm not exactly sure if I miss them or not. I have no urge/need to talk to them really, and there's such a distance. I'm not sure what to say to them anymore. I feel bad that I don't feel bad, but I'm not sure what to think. Also, I recently received letters from some cousins on my mom's side (who are super Christian by the way), and one was a bit of a mood-lifter, while the other was just like: what did I just read? The latter discussed how I like my school, but I should drop out and go to community college anyway... What?
Anyways from that, I don't really know what I'm doing. I take my days one by one, but also plan it, and yet, I still don't know what I'm doing with it. I act like I know what I'm doing, or maybe, more rather, I sound like I know what I'm doing because I have this "plan" but I really don't know what I'm doing. I suppose everyone has those moments: What am I doing with my life? --- It's really scary. It's really depressing. It's like.. meh.
This also makes me think of how I've been thinking of how people might not like me. I'm always paranoid of how people probably don't like me, but act like they do. Like, there's this one person in my school's juggling club, who I'm almost absolutely positive must hate me. They never really talk to me (they talk to other people though), and they are just a bit intimidating and seem irritated at me. WHAT DID I DO TO THEM? WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE THEY HATE ME? *sigh* Whatever I guess. It might just be me. Call me crazy.
Let's see... What have I to do with my schooling? I need to finish that one loan for the next semester (oh, right). I also need to just get my @#$(! together, y'know (well, you probably don't know, but you can just agree - oh yeah, I do). Get it together, bro.
Anyways, anyways, anyways. So, my luggage/suitcase handle doesn't work, which sucks because I'm pulling it with a rope and I'm pretty sure I have bruises on the back of my legs now because you can only imagine how it looks like to pull a heavy suitcase with rope (it nearly rolls horizontally), and the distance (because of the rope probably) isn't that far - which doesn't help. What else?! I hope I get some productivity? Probably said that already. Not really sure what to say now. Not sure what has happened in this past month. Major test failures and whatnot. Meeting some new people. Me being me. Blahblahblah. *sigh*
Anyways, let's hope I write a new blog post sometime soon (only if you want? or if I need it? I guess.).
OH! ALSO, FRANK WARREN (POSTSECRET) IS COMING TO MY SCHOOL. AWESOME. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT.
Now, I bid y'all good night and good day.
Friday, October 26, 2012
Madness Month
So it's been a long time since I posted something new. I've been busy with school and not saying "no" to things. Recently, I pulled an "all-nighter" although I don't really consider it an all-nighter since it wasn't necessary as I wasn't really studying or anything, but I did get more work than usual (meaning I did at least some work). I just got back from eating after work (which I got off early since I wasn't feeling well).
Things have been busy. Planning for the times ahead, as well as taking things as they come. I've planned out my next four years in school - courses and whatnot - and I'm hoping that they work out fairly well.
I've been hanging out with friends and people and doing things - which I have fun, but then again, I feel bad. Why do I feel bad? Well, sometimes, I just don't want to hang out with people (or at least some certain people), but I don't want the friends or people that I do want to hang out with to feel awkward because we're all "friends." I also can't say "no" if people want to hang out because I feel guilty. I understand a lot of people say "no" to hanging out because they have work to do, but when it comes to when I have work and stuff to do, I feel bad to say that I can't hang out. I suppose I need to learn to say "no."
Anyways, other things... Other things... I've been doing pretty poorly in school (I wonder why). I know I should do better, but I'm not sure if I can bring myself to do better. I've been feeling pretty down lately also. Not sure if that affects my schoolwork (well, it affects my participation in things I suppose).
I've been doing better in juggling though! I really enjoy juggling and I'm getting better! I'm learning new tricks and juggling different things. Planning to practice, practice, practice. Although, I feel like I bother the juggling people, so I'm not sure if I should juggle on my own only and not be in the club anymore, or whathaveyou.
There's so many things to say. I should be posting more (even though people probably don't care what I have to say, but it's nice just to get things out - since I don't really have friends). I haven't been making the time to track what I've been doing and now everything is becoming a blur.
What else has been happening.... I'm not sure. Life is life is life. I suppose I shall just try to post more, or something. Maybe I should try to come up with interesting things to say rather than just post about my life.
Side note: Halloween is coming up and I'm not sure if I'm going to dress up. It would be lovely if I could be a pumpkin this Halloween, but I suppose we shall see - I'm not sure how it will work out.
Things have been busy. Planning for the times ahead, as well as taking things as they come. I've planned out my next four years in school - courses and whatnot - and I'm hoping that they work out fairly well.
I've been hanging out with friends and people and doing things - which I have fun, but then again, I feel bad. Why do I feel bad? Well, sometimes, I just don't want to hang out with people (or at least some certain people), but I don't want the friends or people that I do want to hang out with to feel awkward because we're all "friends." I also can't say "no" if people want to hang out because I feel guilty. I understand a lot of people say "no" to hanging out because they have work to do, but when it comes to when I have work and stuff to do, I feel bad to say that I can't hang out. I suppose I need to learn to say "no."
Anyways, other things... Other things... I've been doing pretty poorly in school (I wonder why). I know I should do better, but I'm not sure if I can bring myself to do better. I've been feeling pretty down lately also. Not sure if that affects my schoolwork (well, it affects my participation in things I suppose).
I've been doing better in juggling though! I really enjoy juggling and I'm getting better! I'm learning new tricks and juggling different things. Planning to practice, practice, practice. Although, I feel like I bother the juggling people, so I'm not sure if I should juggle on my own only and not be in the club anymore, or whathaveyou.
There's so many things to say. I should be posting more (even though people probably don't care what I have to say, but it's nice just to get things out - since I don't really have friends). I haven't been making the time to track what I've been doing and now everything is becoming a blur.
What else has been happening.... I'm not sure. Life is life is life. I suppose I shall just try to post more, or something. Maybe I should try to come up with interesting things to say rather than just post about my life.
Side note: Halloween is coming up and I'm not sure if I'm going to dress up. It would be lovely if I could be a pumpkin this Halloween, but I suppose we shall see - I'm not sure how it will work out.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Sickness Season
Wow, so it's been about 3 weeks since I last posted. I apologize for the lack posts. I suppose I didn't realize how hectic college life really is. I'm still transitioning and trying to settle in on campus (surprising, right? It's been like a month already).
Anyways, a lot has happened in three weeks. As of now, I am currently sick (hence the title), and a lot of other people are sick. It must be cold/flu season. Also, the weather's just been all around. Well, it's actually been getting really cold. I need to get some winter clothes ASAP. I seriously don't have any and it's cold like all the time, except those times when it's oddly warm (probably because I'm sick).
Today was actually pretty funny because I've been super delirious. I ended up taking two naps and each time I woke up from the nap, something felt off. Also, I just wasn't sure if the things that were happening were really happening. (You probably can't tell, but I feel so rushed to write this. There's so much to catch up on if I can remember it). I tried taking some cold medicine today (before my second nap) and that was really bizarre. I felt really loopy and I checked the medicine and it said non-drowsy, but I think they lied. I was just so out of it, I practically stumbled into bed. I'm glad I even got into my dorm and bed safely. It was a struggle. I also took an exam tonight which was fun (not) but it was okay. I guess.
Let's see... Some things that stand out from what I'm remembering that I would like to talk about are just like little things I suppose. Like, one time in the dining hall, some guy was on the phone and stopped to compliment my socks. :) Well, gee. Thanks! Then, yesterday, I wore a really random outfit where I wore my socks (thigh-high) outside of my pants, which felt weird, but I wanted to be warm. I also wore a cardigan (a new, cute one that I got recently!) over a long sleeve v-neck and I also wore a scarf. It was quite a site. People didn't compliment me or comment on it... That didn't really make me feel any better, but if they got laughs out of it, then okay! I also had a speech I had to present yesterday, and a chemistry exam. FUN. I'm not sure how I did on either. Probably not that well, but I'm going to blame the sickness-ness of my sickness. Not that that makes sense anyway, but it's okay, because it's the sickness...
What else happened... Well, I got my first job! I am now officially a Starbucks employee! This might sound weird, or maybe just really girly, but Starbucks has been my dream first job since like forever. So then that came true. How exciting, right? I love working there! Everyone is so nice and everything. :)
I've also been trying to meet people in my classes and that's been going alright. I also have these blogs I have to write for one of my classes. That's okay. I'd much prefer to be writing in this blog here. And I once again apologize for being M.I.A. I've been trying to update my iPod without much luck because I've been putting that off. It's really hard because I'm just making a ton of playlists and am unsatisfied with the outcome thus far. Classes have been fun. I joined clubs. I learned to juggle if I hadn't said that already! That's really fun. I try to practice a lot. I've been trying to make friends. I've been trying to get everything all fine and dandy (tuition bills and whatnot). I'm trying to learn to study and trying to get some random, pleasure reading in.
Anyways, all in all, it's been pretty busy. I'll try to check in more often, especially since I have such a horrible memory and otherwise I wouldn't be able to talk about anything. But, until next time!
Anyways, a lot has happened in three weeks. As of now, I am currently sick (hence the title), and a lot of other people are sick. It must be cold/flu season. Also, the weather's just been all around. Well, it's actually been getting really cold. I need to get some winter clothes ASAP. I seriously don't have any and it's cold like all the time, except those times when it's oddly warm (probably because I'm sick).
Today was actually pretty funny because I've been super delirious. I ended up taking two naps and each time I woke up from the nap, something felt off. Also, I just wasn't sure if the things that were happening were really happening. (You probably can't tell, but I feel so rushed to write this. There's so much to catch up on if I can remember it). I tried taking some cold medicine today (before my second nap) and that was really bizarre. I felt really loopy and I checked the medicine and it said non-drowsy, but I think they lied. I was just so out of it, I practically stumbled into bed. I'm glad I even got into my dorm and bed safely. It was a struggle. I also took an exam tonight which was fun (not) but it was okay. I guess.
Let's see... Some things that stand out from what I'm remembering that I would like to talk about are just like little things I suppose. Like, one time in the dining hall, some guy was on the phone and stopped to compliment my socks. :) Well, gee. Thanks! Then, yesterday, I wore a really random outfit where I wore my socks (thigh-high) outside of my pants, which felt weird, but I wanted to be warm. I also wore a cardigan (a new, cute one that I got recently!) over a long sleeve v-neck and I also wore a scarf. It was quite a site. People didn't compliment me or comment on it... That didn't really make me feel any better, but if they got laughs out of it, then okay! I also had a speech I had to present yesterday, and a chemistry exam. FUN. I'm not sure how I did on either. Probably not that well, but I'm going to blame the sickness-ness of my sickness. Not that that makes sense anyway, but it's okay, because it's the sickness...
What else happened... Well, I got my first job! I am now officially a Starbucks employee! This might sound weird, or maybe just really girly, but Starbucks has been my dream first job since like forever. So then that came true. How exciting, right? I love working there! Everyone is so nice and everything. :)
I've also been trying to meet people in my classes and that's been going alright. I also have these blogs I have to write for one of my classes. That's okay. I'd much prefer to be writing in this blog here. And I once again apologize for being M.I.A. I've been trying to update my iPod without much luck because I've been putting that off. It's really hard because I'm just making a ton of playlists and am unsatisfied with the outcome thus far. Classes have been fun. I joined clubs. I learned to juggle if I hadn't said that already! That's really fun. I try to practice a lot. I've been trying to make friends. I've been trying to get everything all fine and dandy (tuition bills and whatnot). I'm trying to learn to study and trying to get some random, pleasure reading in.
Anyways, all in all, it's been pretty busy. I'll try to check in more often, especially since I have such a horrible memory and otherwise I wouldn't be able to talk about anything. But, until next time!
Monday, September 3, 2012
Frazzled Freshman
So, I know it's been a while... again. But I mean, I just had my first week of school. Not to mention my first weekend after my first week of school. So, how's school been? Busybusybusy, I must say. I've gotten up to 6 classes, but recently started questioning one of the classes I'm enrolled in. Like, I took the class in high school and am beginning to wonder if I have to really take it again... Is it necessary?
Anyways, school's been a blast. I mean, I haven't had the best time health-wise, but experience-wise, I am really enjoying the school and atmosphere and the people. The course-work seems fairly easy, except for chemistry... Chemistry is going to be a toughie. I'm hoping that I can get help from my peers throughout the year (although I also hope that I figure out how to do the work on my own as well). I mean, a lot of people are taking chemistry. I like the subject, but right now, it just isn't working out for me. I'm getting stuck on some parts, and that's a bit stressful, but I suppose I'll learn to deal with it.
So this also actually brings me to the part where it's only been a week of school. To me, it seems like it's been forever. Well, not forever, but a while. I think of all the people I've met and all the things that have been happening. Things happen quick. Of course they do, but it's all been a blur - quick. Maybe that's why it's been hard for me to concentrate and to be motivated to do work or even just write in this here blog (well, not to mention that I have to have three other blogs for a class - though, those blogs are more... opaque at this moment (and I apologize if I misused that word, but I cannot find a good word to express what I'm thinking - story of my life, right?).
Just recently, I've gotten my tuition bill. I'm not sure how to go about that. Are my parents going to pay for it? Am I expected to pay for it? Is the school going to kick me out if we can't afford the payments? What is going to happen? Well, I'm fairly stressed about that, but a friend of mine has been trying to calm me down by teaching me to take things one at a time (because I have a bunch of other issues in my mind as well). So, as this week goes on, how am I going to deal with my whole tuition fiasco? I suppose I shall also take the advice of other students and talk to the student aid office and whatnot. Also, I should take things one at a time, and also focus on my actual course work and assignments, like this film I'm supposed to be watching tomorrow (or rather later today/tonight).
There's a bunch a bunch of other things on my mind as well. Like what? Well, aside from the whole financial issue, I've got my health to think about. I just recently bought medical insurance (student medical insurance) thanks to my dad. (Bless him!). I was all worried about how much it would cost if I had to go to the emergency room again. So, whenever I get my insurance card/ID thing, I can go get check-ups whenever I want. Not to mention, I can join the clubs that I've been interested in (since most of them seem to be asking for some sort of insurance, in case). Then, aside from those two issues, I've also got my own mind to worry about. Apparently, I think too much, if y'all hadn't noticed. What a shocker, right? So, I'm thinking of checking up on that some time soon, since, I mean, I should try to be in my right mind, right?
Anyways, I suppose I should head off to bed now. I'm guessing I am going to be trying to update this blog weekly or so. There's just so much to say and so little time (well, I actually seem to have a lot of time and no motivation really, so we'll see how this goes).
Good night to all, or good morning, or evening, or afternoon. Until next time!
Anyways, school's been a blast. I mean, I haven't had the best time health-wise, but experience-wise, I am really enjoying the school and atmosphere and the people. The course-work seems fairly easy, except for chemistry... Chemistry is going to be a toughie. I'm hoping that I can get help from my peers throughout the year (although I also hope that I figure out how to do the work on my own as well). I mean, a lot of people are taking chemistry. I like the subject, but right now, it just isn't working out for me. I'm getting stuck on some parts, and that's a bit stressful, but I suppose I'll learn to deal with it.
So this also actually brings me to the part where it's only been a week of school. To me, it seems like it's been forever. Well, not forever, but a while. I think of all the people I've met and all the things that have been happening. Things happen quick. Of course they do, but it's all been a blur - quick. Maybe that's why it's been hard for me to concentrate and to be motivated to do work or even just write in this here blog (well, not to mention that I have to have three other blogs for a class - though, those blogs are more... opaque at this moment (and I apologize if I misused that word, but I cannot find a good word to express what I'm thinking - story of my life, right?).
Just recently, I've gotten my tuition bill. I'm not sure how to go about that. Are my parents going to pay for it? Am I expected to pay for it? Is the school going to kick me out if we can't afford the payments? What is going to happen? Well, I'm fairly stressed about that, but a friend of mine has been trying to calm me down by teaching me to take things one at a time (because I have a bunch of other issues in my mind as well). So, as this week goes on, how am I going to deal with my whole tuition fiasco? I suppose I shall also take the advice of other students and talk to the student aid office and whatnot. Also, I should take things one at a time, and also focus on my actual course work and assignments, like this film I'm supposed to be watching tomorrow (or rather later today/tonight).
There's a bunch a bunch of other things on my mind as well. Like what? Well, aside from the whole financial issue, I've got my health to think about. I just recently bought medical insurance (student medical insurance) thanks to my dad. (Bless him!). I was all worried about how much it would cost if I had to go to the emergency room again. So, whenever I get my insurance card/ID thing, I can go get check-ups whenever I want. Not to mention, I can join the clubs that I've been interested in (since most of them seem to be asking for some sort of insurance, in case). Then, aside from those two issues, I've also got my own mind to worry about. Apparently, I think too much, if y'all hadn't noticed. What a shocker, right? So, I'm thinking of checking up on that some time soon, since, I mean, I should try to be in my right mind, right?
Anyways, I suppose I should head off to bed now. I'm guessing I am going to be trying to update this blog weekly or so. There's just so much to say and so little time (well, I actually seem to have a lot of time and no motivation really, so we'll see how this goes).
Good night to all, or good morning, or evening, or afternoon. Until next time!
Monday, August 27, 2012
New Beginnings
Sorry it's been a while. These past few days/weeks have been fairly hectic. I just finished my first day of college today. :) Anyway, so I've been M.I.A. because I've been getting ready for the great journey: moving through two (or is it three?) time-zones and getting settled in a new environment. Well, also, I haven't had the best of luck on this journey, but I'm bearing with it. I'm actually having a great time aside from all the bad luck I've had (knock on wood?). So, you're probably like, what bad luck? Wait 'til you hear the stories.
First off, before leaving San Diego just about a week ago, I had been hanging out with friends almost 24/7. If I wasn't hanging out with friends, I was sleeping... If I wasn't sleeping, I was hanging out with friends... pretty much anyway. Also, I had been slowly but surely getting prepared to the great Pennsylvania state (and Pennsylvania State). I had gone to Dave & Busters, Applebee's (for the first time might I say), and many other places, doing many other things. I got to spend time with my friends (though I can't say the same for my family *sadface*). There had just been so many things, it's hard to even begin going into detail what had happened.
Now, let's fast-forward to the day of my flight, or rather, night I suppose. My original flight was from San Diego to Chicago, from Chicago to Washington Dulles, and then from Washington Dulles to State College. It was a "red-eye" flight, fun, right? Anyways, checking into my flight, I ended up having to pay almost $300 for luggage, even though one of the bags was tiny anyway (but each person is allowed only one carry-on and one personal item or something along that lines). While I was waiting for my Chicago flight, some flight attendant or worker person called me up and asked me if I would rather have a direct flight to Washington Dulles since they had space on that flight. I was kind of just like: uh, what? Sure? So, it was like: hey, I get to go to school earlier and settle in earlier. I arrived at Washington Dulles at about 7-ish in the morning. That was alright. It was a bit chilly. I had two jackets on though. When I got to my gate, the plane had been delayed. Then, it got delayed even more. Then, eventually, it got cancelled. A lot of students including myself (and also other random people) had to go to customer service to figure out what to do. It turned out that all the flights to State College were filled or being cancelled or whatnot. If we wanted to take a flight to State College, we would have to wait the next day, or after the weekend. Some people got mad, and what ended up happening was that me and five other students grouped and chipped in for a rental van/car/SUV vehicle. We drove all the way from Washington Dulles to State College because a lot of us had to be there by the next day - or really, that day. So, it took us about five hours to drive all that way. I had to leave my box of linens/sheets at the airport (or wherever it was) because it didn't show up.
So, the other students and I got to the school (area) at about 5-ish or so. I had my four pieces of luggage as well as another bag and whatever else (it's all a blur now). One of the other students helped me bring my luggage to the building and I got to the elevator myself. Fun. My room's on the top floor. I didn't want to leave my bags on the elevator, so I struggled getting all of them out at least. Then, I tried finding my room, while moving my luggage too. So, my luggage was pretty heavy... and by the time I found my room, I started to get a bloody nose. What a great first impression. Two girls on my floor ended up helping me out by showing me where the bathroom was, as well as providing me with toilet paper and tissues. I also had to get my key from another building, so I walked there with a tissue to my nose and people just asking: Are you okay? What can I say? "Yeah, it's cool. I'm fiiiiine. Don't worry about it." Fun times. When I got my key, I just tossed all my luggage into the room and since I didn't know where any food was, or if any food places were open, I just slept on the bed... with no linens or blankets or pillows, not to mention that the bed was pretty much covered by bookshelves along the wall. Through the night, I bumped my knees into them a couple of times.
The next day, I had my advising day where I got my ID card and scheduled my classes. This part wasn't that bad because I actually met some pretty cool people. There was this one guy in my sort of orientation group that I really enjoyed talking to (pretty much made my day), but it turns out that we don't have any similar majors (like really, nowhere near), and we live in different residence halls. So, I'm left thinking: what are the odds that we'll see each other again? (I suppose this is the one time I sort of regret not doing something - asking for his contact info. *sigh*). After that whole part, that same day, well actually, right after that part, I decided to get something to eat since I hadn't eaten for about 20-21 hours from then. So, I decided to get some food, which I ended up barely even eating (but I saved it for later and ended up eating more of it later, but still didn't finish it all). Then, I still didn't know about dinner or anything, and I was just about to call it an early night again, when I got a knock on my door asking if I wanted to join the floor dinner. Yay. I get more food, right? That was good for me. I could have gone for another 20 hours without food then. That would have been a bummer. But after the dinner, I ended up getting another bloody nose, though I don't think anyone really noticed this time since it looked like I could have been blowing my nose. Then, I also called a nurse, and was told to visit a doctor. I ended up going to the emergency center and found out that I had an infection. Then I was prescribed antibiotics and other medication. That was a bunch of fun. I was told that the antibiotics may turn my urine and stool orange, so I shouldn't be surprised. Joy.
The day after that, I didn't have much of an idea of what to do. I walked around and whatnot. Oh, right, I had another night with no sheets or anything, and then I had found out that my box was shipped to a different city that I didn't even go to (flight-wise). I was worried that I was going to have to take a taxi to pick up the box. Be aware that this city is about an hour away. Imagine how much the fare would have been, you know? But then, I called the airline again, and apparently, a taxi service had picked up a lot of luggage and transferred it to the college town's airport. Awesome, it's closer. So, this day, I took a taxi to the airport and picked up my linens. Oh, how happy I was to have comfy sheets to sleep on for this night. When I got back, my roommate had come in and was getting settled. I got to know her a bit and then we parted ways for a bit. I went with our floor for another floor dinner as well as a floor meeting, and then we later went to a "convocation." This meal, I actually ate a lot more than usual (I was hungry). Then, after the convocation, we were all walking (well, I actually wasn't sure where we were all walking, but I had planned to walk back to the dorms), and some guy walked next to me. I decided to talk to him since it was awkward to just walk side-by-side silently. He ended up complimenting my hair and told me about this late-night activity/event thing. And we got free stuff and I tried rock climbing (on those walls with the buttons at the top) and played pool (and got 10 free hours for that). I ended up hanging out with my new friend for a while and met his friends (making more friends!) and whatnot. Then, I eventually went back to my dorm, but when I tried getting into my room, the door was blocked. :( I didn't want to disturb my roommate who was already sleeping, so I almost ended up sleeping out in the hallway. It was about an hour before I eventually sucked up the courage and got into the room (without waking my roommate up, kind of - she said she had trouble sleeping anyway).
Then, the following day, I had my college orientation for an hour. I woke up just in time to get to the orientation and then I was off for the day. I hung out more with my new friend and whatnot and stuff. We also hung out with his roommate and we all ate dinner together. Then, that was pretty much the gist of the day (though I may be leaving some things out - I just can't quite remember - hectic, remember?).
And that leads to today. Today, I had my first day of classes. I had my morning chemistry class with a bunch of people, and I was probably one of the last people to arrive. My professor had/has an accent and since I was towards the back, I could hardly understand half of the things she was saying. Then, I had an hour to get some breakfast, though I didn't know where to get breakfast. I ended up checking my laptop, then when I tried turning my laptop off, it had 63 updates. Like, really? Why was there so many? Anyways, that took half an hour. Then I got some Starbucks and went to my next class since I had no idea where it was really. I took a really round-about way of trying to find it and when I got to the building, I wasn't even sure if there was classes there because it looked like a bunch of offices. I eventually found it, but the room was dark, and I was there about fifteen minutes early, but I got to meet a couple of people in my class. The professor for this class (math) had an accent also, and that was funny. Two professors with accents back-to-back. After that class, I had my philosophy class. This teacher pronounced my last name right! AWESOME. But before that class started, people were being really quiet, and it was awkward. I think I broke the ice by saying that out loud and introducing myself to the girl next to me. (What a trend-setter I am, right?). That class actually got let out early since none of us had questions. Then I had my English/Communication class next. The people here were a bit quiet too. So I introduced myself to the people next to me. That class was pretty fun because the professor was a bit silly, but in a good way. That was my last class for the day. Also, to sum up the rest of the day shortly (so there doesn't need to be any useless details), I made two trips buying all of my textbooks, and wasn't feeling that well (that time of month - ugh - if that isn't too much info.). Then also, later on, I got dinner in downtown, but the food wasn't that great, or at least my choice wasn't that great. And also, it was raining, so I walked in the rain. But yeah. That's pretty much what had happened. Now, waiting for tomorrow, where I now have the psychology class I wanted, but it's at 8 in the morning and now I have 6 classes so far. Also tomorrow, I have math still, and then my religious studies (intro. to world religions) class. And I think that's about it. (Sounds about right, right?).
Well, I think that's it for now because I'm not feeling well still (MY LUCK, you know?). And hopefully tomorrow's a better day (though, don't get me wrong, I've been having a good time aside from the bad times). Let's hope for the best, until next time.
First off, before leaving San Diego just about a week ago, I had been hanging out with friends almost 24/7. If I wasn't hanging out with friends, I was sleeping... If I wasn't sleeping, I was hanging out with friends... pretty much anyway. Also, I had been slowly but surely getting prepared to the great Pennsylvania state (and Pennsylvania State). I had gone to Dave & Busters, Applebee's (for the first time might I say), and many other places, doing many other things. I got to spend time with my friends (though I can't say the same for my family *sadface*). There had just been so many things, it's hard to even begin going into detail what had happened.
Now, let's fast-forward to the day of my flight, or rather, night I suppose. My original flight was from San Diego to Chicago, from Chicago to Washington Dulles, and then from Washington Dulles to State College. It was a "red-eye" flight, fun, right? Anyways, checking into my flight, I ended up having to pay almost $300 for luggage, even though one of the bags was tiny anyway (but each person is allowed only one carry-on and one personal item or something along that lines). While I was waiting for my Chicago flight, some flight attendant or worker person called me up and asked me if I would rather have a direct flight to Washington Dulles since they had space on that flight. I was kind of just like: uh, what? Sure? So, it was like: hey, I get to go to school earlier and settle in earlier. I arrived at Washington Dulles at about 7-ish in the morning. That was alright. It was a bit chilly. I had two jackets on though. When I got to my gate, the plane had been delayed. Then, it got delayed even more. Then, eventually, it got cancelled. A lot of students including myself (and also other random people) had to go to customer service to figure out what to do. It turned out that all the flights to State College were filled or being cancelled or whatnot. If we wanted to take a flight to State College, we would have to wait the next day, or after the weekend. Some people got mad, and what ended up happening was that me and five other students grouped and chipped in for a rental van/car/SUV vehicle. We drove all the way from Washington Dulles to State College because a lot of us had to be there by the next day - or really, that day. So, it took us about five hours to drive all that way. I had to leave my box of linens/sheets at the airport (or wherever it was) because it didn't show up.
So, the other students and I got to the school (area) at about 5-ish or so. I had my four pieces of luggage as well as another bag and whatever else (it's all a blur now). One of the other students helped me bring my luggage to the building and I got to the elevator myself. Fun. My room's on the top floor. I didn't want to leave my bags on the elevator, so I struggled getting all of them out at least. Then, I tried finding my room, while moving my luggage too. So, my luggage was pretty heavy... and by the time I found my room, I started to get a bloody nose. What a great first impression. Two girls on my floor ended up helping me out by showing me where the bathroom was, as well as providing me with toilet paper and tissues. I also had to get my key from another building, so I walked there with a tissue to my nose and people just asking: Are you okay? What can I say? "Yeah, it's cool. I'm fiiiiine. Don't worry about it." Fun times. When I got my key, I just tossed all my luggage into the room and since I didn't know where any food was, or if any food places were open, I just slept on the bed... with no linens or blankets or pillows, not to mention that the bed was pretty much covered by bookshelves along the wall. Through the night, I bumped my knees into them a couple of times.
The next day, I had my advising day where I got my ID card and scheduled my classes. This part wasn't that bad because I actually met some pretty cool people. There was this one guy in my sort of orientation group that I really enjoyed talking to (pretty much made my day), but it turns out that we don't have any similar majors (like really, nowhere near), and we live in different residence halls. So, I'm left thinking: what are the odds that we'll see each other again? (I suppose this is the one time I sort of regret not doing something - asking for his contact info. *sigh*). After that whole part, that same day, well actually, right after that part, I decided to get something to eat since I hadn't eaten for about 20-21 hours from then. So, I decided to get some food, which I ended up barely even eating (but I saved it for later and ended up eating more of it later, but still didn't finish it all). Then, I still didn't know about dinner or anything, and I was just about to call it an early night again, when I got a knock on my door asking if I wanted to join the floor dinner. Yay. I get more food, right? That was good for me. I could have gone for another 20 hours without food then. That would have been a bummer. But after the dinner, I ended up getting another bloody nose, though I don't think anyone really noticed this time since it looked like I could have been blowing my nose. Then, I also called a nurse, and was told to visit a doctor. I ended up going to the emergency center and found out that I had an infection. Then I was prescribed antibiotics and other medication. That was a bunch of fun. I was told that the antibiotics may turn my urine and stool orange, so I shouldn't be surprised. Joy.
The day after that, I didn't have much of an idea of what to do. I walked around and whatnot. Oh, right, I had another night with no sheets or anything, and then I had found out that my box was shipped to a different city that I didn't even go to (flight-wise). I was worried that I was going to have to take a taxi to pick up the box. Be aware that this city is about an hour away. Imagine how much the fare would have been, you know? But then, I called the airline again, and apparently, a taxi service had picked up a lot of luggage and transferred it to the college town's airport. Awesome, it's closer. So, this day, I took a taxi to the airport and picked up my linens. Oh, how happy I was to have comfy sheets to sleep on for this night. When I got back, my roommate had come in and was getting settled. I got to know her a bit and then we parted ways for a bit. I went with our floor for another floor dinner as well as a floor meeting, and then we later went to a "convocation." This meal, I actually ate a lot more than usual (I was hungry). Then, after the convocation, we were all walking (well, I actually wasn't sure where we were all walking, but I had planned to walk back to the dorms), and some guy walked next to me. I decided to talk to him since it was awkward to just walk side-by-side silently. He ended up complimenting my hair and told me about this late-night activity/event thing. And we got free stuff and I tried rock climbing (on those walls with the buttons at the top) and played pool (and got 10 free hours for that). I ended up hanging out with my new friend for a while and met his friends (making more friends!) and whatnot. Then, I eventually went back to my dorm, but when I tried getting into my room, the door was blocked. :( I didn't want to disturb my roommate who was already sleeping, so I almost ended up sleeping out in the hallway. It was about an hour before I eventually sucked up the courage and got into the room (without waking my roommate up, kind of - she said she had trouble sleeping anyway).
Then, the following day, I had my college orientation for an hour. I woke up just in time to get to the orientation and then I was off for the day. I hung out more with my new friend and whatnot and stuff. We also hung out with his roommate and we all ate dinner together. Then, that was pretty much the gist of the day (though I may be leaving some things out - I just can't quite remember - hectic, remember?).
And that leads to today. Today, I had my first day of classes. I had my morning chemistry class with a bunch of people, and I was probably one of the last people to arrive. My professor had/has an accent and since I was towards the back, I could hardly understand half of the things she was saying. Then, I had an hour to get some breakfast, though I didn't know where to get breakfast. I ended up checking my laptop, then when I tried turning my laptop off, it had 63 updates. Like, really? Why was there so many? Anyways, that took half an hour. Then I got some Starbucks and went to my next class since I had no idea where it was really. I took a really round-about way of trying to find it and when I got to the building, I wasn't even sure if there was classes there because it looked like a bunch of offices. I eventually found it, but the room was dark, and I was there about fifteen minutes early, but I got to meet a couple of people in my class. The professor for this class (math) had an accent also, and that was funny. Two professors with accents back-to-back. After that class, I had my philosophy class. This teacher pronounced my last name right! AWESOME. But before that class started, people were being really quiet, and it was awkward. I think I broke the ice by saying that out loud and introducing myself to the girl next to me. (What a trend-setter I am, right?). That class actually got let out early since none of us had questions. Then I had my English/Communication class next. The people here were a bit quiet too. So I introduced myself to the people next to me. That class was pretty fun because the professor was a bit silly, but in a good way. That was my last class for the day. Also, to sum up the rest of the day shortly (so there doesn't need to be any useless details), I made two trips buying all of my textbooks, and wasn't feeling that well (that time of month - ugh - if that isn't too much info.). Then also, later on, I got dinner in downtown, but the food wasn't that great, or at least my choice wasn't that great. And also, it was raining, so I walked in the rain. But yeah. That's pretty much what had happened. Now, waiting for tomorrow, where I now have the psychology class I wanted, but it's at 8 in the morning and now I have 6 classes so far. Also tomorrow, I have math still, and then my religious studies (intro. to world religions) class. And I think that's about it. (Sounds about right, right?).
Well, I think that's it for now because I'm not feeling well still (MY LUCK, you know?). And hopefully tomorrow's a better day (though, don't get me wrong, I've been having a good time aside from the bad times). Let's hope for the best, until next time.
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