Slightly Deviating

Another sleepless night for this traveler. I find that I'm beginning to adjust to sleeping around this time, which isn't that good because once I venture into the different timezone(s), it's not getting any better. What I'm actually beginning to do is learning to sleep through the day... What am I to do to solve this problem? Maybe I shall stay up for a whole day until I sleep at a regular time? But what happens if I can't adjust to that? Or what if I can't adjust to an overnight flight and a change in time zones?
Anyways, I also realize that with each post, I am creating a style in which I am writing (or rather typing), but at the same time, the post I work on is totally different than the one I had written prior to the current. I guess that just shows that people constantly change, but at the same time, they don't. Just slightly, but other things stay the same. In accordance to the topic of my posts, I find that there's so much that I want to talk about, but feel that it doesn't mix with whatever the main topic of each post is. Does that really matter? I guess not, but that's just the way I think.
So, I'm just going to go ahead and do it. The topic I'm going to change to is: music. (Oh my). Yes, music. Recently, I have been attending concerts (as you may have read from my previous post(s)). I've decided that I really enjoy going to concerts, even though standing can be a pain, and pushing people can be a bit irritating. The main point of the concerts I go to is that I enjoy listening to a band or bands that I like. I also like being exposed to new and different bands/music. Although I'm a bit awkward in actually trying to meet the band(s) in question, I still have fun and at the end of the day, I'm fairly satisfied. I'm going to say that I'm not a super big fan of any specific band that I would go out of my way to meet them and scream for them and do what most fan-girls do, but I like music. (And I guess a lot of people must say that, but the way I mean it, is just like... I enjoy music, but I don't make such a big deal about it... [though, on another little spiel, I do make a big deal about things sometime, but that's just because I guess I like dramatizing things a bit, or I do that without exactly realizing how "big" the deal actually is]). I've already planned some concerts I would like to see when I go off to college (though, it may be a bit too soon to be thinking about that...).
While writing about music (just above), I also started thinking about how personal I'm going to get with this blog. And I suppose I'll explain now why I have an issue with this. I suppose that I have an issue with privacy and being so open because of my previous relationship (shocker, right? It's always gotta do with something of the "love life" aspect). What had happened in that previous relationship? Well, my main issue isn't exactly with my ex-significant other (if that's how you would put it), but rather with one of his (ex?) significant other(s). (Bigger shock!...Not.). I suppose, I'm getting personal right now. And I'll just say that the whole situation was just too much for me, in that I've been feeling too vulnerable and therefore, I am trying to be more protective of myself. But, enough of that. Maybe I'll be willing to share more later. You hardly know me yet.
And off to another topic (while I'm on this roll), I'll talk about... I suppose my current thoughts. About school and whatnot. You know. (Well, you don't, but you will after I tell you, right?). My current thoughts (without dragging irrelevant topics/subjects in), consist of the days counting down until I go off to college. What a big change. How little time I have let with the friends I am still in contact with. How many (or rather little) friends I actually have kept in contact with since high school (which is funny, because I actually don't really talk to anyone from high school anymore, and when I say that, I mean I don't talk to them at all). How ready I am to go to college (Am I really ready? Even though I have all the courses I want to take planned out - besides the order in which I'm going to be taking them). Who are my new friends going to be, and how fast will I be able to make friends, and feel some sort of connection toward real friendship? How much am I going to change? (Since, college is a time for me to recreate myself and all). How will I transition from Southern California to Pennsylvania, and even more, from a city to a little college town? How good am I going to be at keeping in touch with friends and family?
Well, I guess this partly shows how much I think. Too much. Haha. I think so much that I become a super depressing person, which no one really likes. I'm sure it's good to get out, but when all I'm doing is becoming a downer on people, that's depressing in itself. And I suppose, this whole spiel just shows my "gloomy" side.
So, I suppose that's enough for now, and maybe I'll be more comfortable talking next time. (Hey, you learned more about me!... Kind of.).
I shall try to get some sleep now, since it only takes about 7 minutes (on average) for a person to fall asleep (or so I've heard). I just need to close my eyes for 7 minutes and think of nothing. Or, at least think of something happy... Maybe I'll think about how excited I am that I have been getting things done. (Like, how I'm in the middle of cleaning my room - I just need more boxes, and how I'm getting so prepared for college - but I suppose that's somewhat in my nature). Well, good night, or good morning, (or afternoon too!) to all the readers, the writers, the sleepers, and the night owls out there. (Pretty much everyone).