Snow Slush (Flurry)

What have we all been waiting for? The new snow that is supposed to be coming with all of its slushiness and water, snowflakes and ice. Well, that happened... and it escalated quickly. The school decided to have "delays" due to the "inclement weather," but hey, that makes us all happy right? I got to sleep in late, and two of my classes got cancelled for the day. An exam got pushed back, and this gives me more time to study :D Yay! Also, this is exciting because the snow was just about to disappear and I wanted it to be snowy again because it's nice. I mean, it's cold, but still. And, there was just random piles of leftover snow for a while and it was starting to get annoying because it's lying to me (dramatic).
So, I've been writing a bit more :) Yay! I suppose I just have no one to talk to really. But that's okay. But that's not the only reason to write. A lot of things happen. I've been feeling a bit down from time to time. I'm not really sure what to do. I'm figuring out which friends would accept me for who I am or might become, and if I would have to keep things from certain friends because I know they don't approve of some things.
Just the other day, I talked to one of my friends about "ideal man preferences" and what I like to call "ideally not preferences" or "ideal prefer nots." I'm thinking of writing them down sometime, but I also want to clarify that I'm not trying to justify these as my standards, but rather just things that would be nice. I admit that I'm picky, but I'm also lenient and willing to give people chances. These preferences are not set in stone, so even if I say, for example, "I prefer a guy that is around my height (like around 6 in. taller max, and 3 in. shorter min.)." I don't mean they HAVE TO be in those height restrictions, but I'm just thinking that if he's too tall or too short, it might be awkward. But, the heart wants what the heart wants sometimes, so I have no idea how tall guys are going to be. So, more on this sort of stuff later, maybe. (I don't want to get people's hopes up, or bring them down, so I might not officialize it or anything).
Today, I think I'm going to share some songs that I think represent how I feel, like by most of the lyrics and whatnot. They kind of go together and I like them too, although they make me kind of sad. The first I would like to share is Lost in my Mind by The Head and The Heart. Pretty much, I'm feeling "lost in my mind" because I tend to wander off in thought... I think too much. Another song I want to share is Heartilation by Andrew Jackson Jihad. "If you think you're better than me, you're right. There's no one to love, there's no one to trust in my life." "Sometimes I get so lonesome I can't breathe, sometimes I get so scared that I can't speak. Sometimes I get so worried I can't hear my heart beat anyway." "I wanna tear out my heart and give it away to a person more deserving one day. If all I see, is the worst in everything, that's all I'm going to get." - All of these lyrics in the song, I feel as though I can relate to. The last song I wanted to share is Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan. "Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you." "No you don't know what it's like, to be like me. To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark. To be kicked when you're down and feel like you've been pushed around. To be on the edge of breaking down, and there's no one there to save you." I kind of feel like that too. I don't really think I have many friends, although I call people friends. I've been starting to think that I would be one of those people who are never invited to weddings unless it's in my family because I don't have any close friends, if friends at all. I don't think I make an impression, and maybe it seems like I have a lot of friends, so people aren't worried, but I don't really have friends at all. I feel like it's easy to meet people and all, but it's hard for me to form real friendships that have the sharing of secrets and the trust and all... And this all sounds pretty depressing, but I hope it'd change eventually. There are people I talk to from time to time, so I'm hoping to bear through it all.
Uh, anyway... Classes are alright. I already feel like I'm slightly falling behind though. I need to step my game up and study. I feel bad, but I'm getting slightly irritated at my roommate and her friend(s) because it's hard for me to concentrate in my dorm room then. And I also don't know where else to study. I'm liking my classes so far, with the exception of some professors that have little things that annoy me a bit, but the courses themselves are good.
Not quite sure what much else has happened... So maybe until next time! (And anyways, I gotta go eat lunch now while I can!)