That other blog I was talking about, it's actually really hard to establish. It's not that encouraging that no one seems to be doing much about anything. But I mean, I suppose it should be more of a self-encouraging thing. I'm really into the idea and all, but I suppose I just don't know how to quite go about it. I have all these different ideas for the whole thing, but it's a bit difficult to start a foundation for it. Right now, the actual WordPress blog is a skeleton because I'm not sure what to do. It has potential and everything, but I don't want to mess things up. I don't want people to get wrong impressions or anything. I also have a hard time writing because all these thoughts in my head tend to come and go. Like my thoughts on irreversibility from psychology. That was an interesting thought: It's pretty much saying how kids can't tell that an object can go back to an original state - such as starting with two balls of clay that are the same size and changing the shape of one. The kids don't think it could go back to its original ball shape. My thoughts on it was that maybe they're right though. When you change the shape of the clay, and then mold it back, technically, it's the same clay, but it's not the same as it was before. But I mean, I guess the concept is more of how it's going back to the shape rather than the same clay. It might be my philosophical side thinking of things - like the river in Siddhartha. Time flows and all that, but the river five minutes ago is not the same as the river now. I think that's also how I've been thinking of things. You cannot be the same person that you were moments ago, because the moment's passed. In that bit of time, you've gained something more that changes you as a person. One simple thing, changes everything.
Oh wow. I almost went back to sleep for the day. I almost forgot that I'm just about to schedule courses. I can do that in less than 2 hours! That's exciting. I really also need to sleep and stuff though too because I haven't been feeling well. It's sort of hard to describe, but my appetite has been weird. And I don't know if it's me just being such a hypochondriac, but I've sort of had a loss in appetite. If that's the best way to describe it. I mean, I'm hungry, my body's hungry, but my throat and mouth doesn't always want me to eat. I want to eat, but I can't. I cannot force my body to eat if it doesn't want to sometimes. There's just that feeling of incapableness, perhaps? The unwillingness to chew and chew and swallow food. I don't know. I'm glad I got to eat dinner though. This morning was pretty miserable in that it was brunch, and there was fairly good food - scrambled eggs, quiche, sausage links, scalloped potatoes - but once I talked to a friend for a moment, my body was just like: Nope. Guess you're not eating anymore. Drink a bit more water and you're done. Even if you're hungry. You are done. That was disappointing. Then, I got coffee with a friend and usually that helps, but I'm pretty sure it made me feel worse. Woozy. What a doozy. Then, I eventually got food at Barnes & Noble, half a sandwich and soup. I finished half of each, so it was more like 1/4 of a sandwich and 1/2 cup of soup, which is like nothing. That was fun. What a waste of money. My body likes to waste money! Lame! Anyways, luckily I had food from earlier - Chinese food that I had gotten with one of my friends Friday night. :) Yay. I didn't finish the food still, but it's good enough!
What now... Maybe before the advocacy project is due for my class, I'll have established a good portion of it. *hope*
Or something.
Wellp, I think I'm going to take a nap or something or maybe try to occupy another hour and a half before I can schedule courses...
Til Next Time!
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