Mopey Mondays

...But wait, it's Tuesday. Wellp, that too.
Monday was a bit sad because my day started out with me seeing a dead squirrel, which made me sad. My first class was sort of cancelled because the professor had low blood pressure and was told to rest for a day or two, so I didn't have to wake up as early, but I had an optometrist appointment. Whilst on the way to the bus stop and waiting at the bus stop, I came across a squirrel that was dead in the middle of the road. In all honesty, I wanted to move it, seeing as it hadn't been crushed to the ground at this point, but I was hesitant since I hadn't any gloves or anything to pick it up with (maybe not that it should matter). So, I left it there... By the end of the day, it had been smothered to the ground. So, no one had done anything, but watch it get repetitively ran over. And half the time, I'm just thinking that I'm weird for just wanting to stare at it. When I first saw it, when I last saw it, I just wanted to stare at it. Up close too. Just to stare at it. Maybe for my condolences, but I don't know.
Another reason why Monday was a bit disappointing was that one of my classes was deliberating. Or at least practicing deliberating. And my view on that is that successful deliberation is only ideal. I don't think I believe that deliberation can ever really be successful. We can only try and in most times, it's not actual deliberation because in the end, people will either just agree or something. In most cases, there are going to be compromises, or things of that sort. No one will always get what they want fully and completely. Also, I know that my views compared to my peers are usually "out there," so, what should I say? They might not even have to do with the topic at hand. Like, we're talking about (more or less) eco-friendly options and whether there should be drastic actions taken - by government and businesses. And I'm here thinking: Well, we're so used to living in such a fast-pace that maybe things such as taxes and rations would help us live a slower-pace - like, live in the moment. And is America a melting pot or mosaic? How does that affect our inability to make decisions? Why can't we come up with decisions? If it'll benefit everyone, why are we, in the end, so selfish? Things like that. So, I'm not really up for deliberating.
Also, Also, Also. The kid in my psych class. C'mon! I just want to be friends. It really seems like he's avoiding me. He gets to class like right when it starts and leaves right when it ends. HOW ARE WE GOING TO BE FRIENDS IF YOU KEEP RUNNING AWAY?
Well, yesterday, I got to juggle, which was nice. But some of my friends didn't show up. (You know who you are!). And then, some people were mean! But whatever! I just felt weird about it. I mean, there was a new person who came by and she seemed like a nice person. And then the lot of them went out for dinner, but I passed because I had another club afterwards, and also, I don't think I was particularly in the mood to become more sad. I wasn't in the mood to do much really. But, I had the itching feeling that if I went to dinner, I would inevitably turn out ultimately depressed about the time (that's a bit of an exaggeration).
Anyways, after juggling club, I went to my other club, the Harry Potter club at my school. And I mean, I got to meet some people, but I didn't participate in the games they played... Because I wasn't in the mood to do much still. It was an okay time...
And I guess I should be happier about today because I'm going to be hanging out with one of my friends, but I don't know. I woke up to it snowing and that doesn't really make my day because the timing's inconvenient. And it's not the same as a pretty snow, but more of a sorrowful snow, at least to me. It's putting a bit of a damper on my day. And then, one of the only classes I have today (I have one class and a lab), my friend didn't show up! I planned to talk to him and stuff! Instead, this one girl sat next to me and said hi to me. Not that that's a bad thing, but she got my hopes up because I thought she was my friend. And so, I was there, hoping she wouldn't ask me for help with the work we had to do, because in most cases, it seems that people just look for me to help, or more rather just look at my work. Thanks for trying at doing work on your own guys. (Note: The friend in this class is not the same friend that I'm going to be hanging out with later today).
Anyways, one of the only things that's going to get me through the day is this song: The Offspring's You're Gonna Go Far, Kid. And maybe also if I get my package (books!) and make friends with the guy at the desk where I could pick up my package. And maybe if things just turn out well... I don't know. Let's hope for a good day. Maybe hopefully, a good week. Please!