Jealous Attention(Whore)

And obnoxious at that.
So, I'm admitting that I'm an extremely jealous person and an attention-whore. And I know that these are bad traits to have, but I can't help it. I like receiving attention and talking and all that (not that I like hearing myself talk, but I suppose it's more like I like being heard). And I also get jealous of things that I suppose, seem to try to steal attention away from me... *sigh*
What am I talking about? Well, I'm specifically actually referring to this one friend that I have. She's a doll really. (This is a different friend from the venting). But this friend. This friend. She's a real dork. And I don't mean that in a bad way. She's also a nerd. Also not meant in a bad way. I'm jealous of how smart she is. And how innocent she is (to an extent - jealous to an extent of this innocence). But the thing that really gets me is that it seems like she's getting undeserved attention. Like, she has League of Legends on her laptop, but she didn't even really play much. I mean, I played that game too, but I don't have it on my laptop, nor do I play it anymore. And the rest of my family plays that. My family's a bunch of gaming nerds. So, the thing that gets me is that it seems like she plays, when she doesn't actually play (not that I actually know, but I don't think she does anymore at least - and it's not like she played extensively when she did). I don't know. I'm just crazy. Really.
I get that I'm not a real gamer (at least not anymore), but she isn't either. It's not that I'm embarrassed of it either or anything, but that's a pastime for me. I used to play games, I enjoyed it, but I just don't want to get sucked into that sort of thing at this moment.
And then, this friend. She's so dorky and awkward. And then it seems like she steals all my friends. She meets all these people through me and then goes on and becomes friends with them. I mean, I get that's like the process of making friends, but they were my friends first. And now I suppose there's also a possessive part to this too. I get possessive of things. I know this. It's bad. But, I mean, I can share. But... I've been in a club for weeks, months, what-have-you, and I ask her to come to a meeting, and all of a sudden, she's in the club and friends with everyone too? But not even close friends with anyone in the club, yet everyone seems to talk to her more than me. What is this? I don't know. Maybe it's whatever. I don't know. Maybe I'm just really crazy, really paranoid.
But I suppose it's just that this friend. This friend is likable compared to my obnoxious, crazy, insulting, heartless self. Maybe she deserves the attention, but I just can't help but be jealous, possessive, etc.
I don't know.