Negative Motivation

You know how people say that they have "zero motivation?" Yeah, well, I'm considering myself as having negative motivation. Yeah. It's that serious. This must be the worst week ever. There's so much work to do. I had little sleep. Spring break was great, don't get me wrong. But, really school? You won't open the campus again until right before classes begin again and on top of that, all this work is due? I get that I maybe should have brought my lab homework that I'm stressing over with me during break, but you gotta know that there's only so many things I could bring, and I'm not sure what's more important... Clothes or Work? I mean, at least some professors are lenient and pushed back deadlines for some things.
So, I really just need to get through this lab. I'm starting to not even care. I just need to pass, right? Maybe that's good enough for me. Why are you making me dislike Chemistry, lab? And anyway, depending on if I'm aiming for "Dean's List" this semester or not, I just should hopefully get something like a B- in the class. I guess that means I'd have to do all the other work at least a bit more than adequately. And maybe I should have asked someone for help with this lab, but I think I'm a bit too proud for that. But not really proud. Maybe more like embarrassed.
What else do I have to do this week? Oh yeah, Statistics work. Ew. Ugh. Statistics, really? We have all this tedious work to do and a project. At least there's a buffer between grades. I'm pretty sure I don't have to exert too much effort to get an A in the class. But still. Why do we have a bunch of pointless work? Can someone please tell me that?
I think the only thing I don't mind doing is the paper that I have to write about online deliberation and my reflection on it. That's the assignment that got pushed back. Thankfully. Otherwise it would have been due today during my lab. Or at least by the time before my lab's about finished. Then I would have had to choose between grades and it just came to me today to not do the chem lab homework. Or maybe I should still do at least some of it. I suppose I'm still conflicted about that.
And the only things that I have to look forward to this week are the clubs I get to go to... If I don't forget what times they really are. Like, yesterday, I went to juggling club. But I forgot that the tea club I was going to go to was at 7, not 8. So, it was just juggling club yesterday, which was cool still. Although, the wind was really bothersome. I seriously hate the wind, if I were to hate anything. But anyways, there's also still magic club (not the playing card game), more juggling club, and tea club (lecture portion).
Then hopefully, I'll be able to hang out with friends and stuff. Oh no. I forgot about the exam I also have on Friday. Fun~ Philosophy - Symbolic Logic exam. I mean, I think that I'll maybe do fairly fine. I got the extra credit assignment done fairly quick, if I must say. If it really was a "race," I think I would have finished first, or something like that. But then again, it was Monday after break just ended and everyone's probably brain dead... That's not nice to say, but right? Who does work over break? Anyways, I have to get that homework done too. And I need to do my laundry today. And I still have a sleep debt that's forever increasing.
Anyways, I hope I somehow get cheered up through this week. I hope I have more motivation. Maybe definitely after my chem lab. Four hours? Ugh. And there's group work/experiment today. And and and yeah. LAB.
In summation, happy anniversary to my loving parents. Happy birthday to my friend(s).
Let's hope the day and the week ahead of us gets better for all. Have a scrumdiddlyumptious day.